The First Law of Blood-Rhythm

Mezoo is one of my best friends, she's always been there for me. She was my first kiss. She was there when my dad never came home. She was there when my mom took off. She's there when I can't get the rhythm right. She's there when Pei's an asshole. I guess you'd have to say she's just there.

Well she was.

She was there when Gabbi and I broke up. I thought she was the one. That night I drank till I passed out and Mezoo made sure I didn't drown in my own puke. Now that's a good friend. I don't think she does it because I'm her cousin either. Least I don't get that feel from her. It's all good with Gabbi though. We're getting along now, more honest. We're better friends I guess. Semi likes her I think. Not sure how I feel about that yet.

But I do hear the Spex have their spooky fingers on Mezoo. Gonna have to talk to her about that one. I can't imagine my Mezoo as a Spex. I have to stop it, it'll change everything!

Maybe it's all this first fires crap. Maybe it's because she wants to be like Fonce. Great. More Fonce in my life, just what I need. NOT!

There's something different about her lately. She's quick to give me that grown up look. I don't like it. Does she have to grow up and be different? Why can't she just stay the same? Ogedaii thinks she's hot. I told him I'd kick his ass, but I'd rather Ogedaii looked her up and down than some other thick headed guys. I heard the Ubar's giving her the eye. Makin a thing about spending time with her. Guess the Ubar has it all over a nobody Drummer from the back wagons. And now Fonce has forbidden me to even go around them until, hell I don't know when. Maybe until sky falls on his head and sets him strait. I aint holdin my breath.

It feels like I'm saying goodbye. Like I'm watching her go far away where I can't reach her anymore. I'm missing my best friend like a big hole in my chest and it sucks ass.